The cusp of something big

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April 22, 2017

This document was first written March 29, 2016.   Today is April 22, 2017.

The first time i heard these words… and yes, i say “heard these words” because i do hear the Lord (if you question the realness of that, I would love to share more about my personal relationship with our Lord and Savior another time) was September 13, 2015 according to my journal. Here is an account of the amount of times i journalled this exact phrase.

September 13, 2015

November 2, 2015

March 29, 2016

To be honest… i thought it would be more than just 3 times… so i tried to think of where else i could have kept something like this. I have found random documents on my computer, chicken scratch in my church bulletin, then i was quickly reminded of another journal i had one laying around here. So I checked that as well. Nothing.

Regardless… over a year and a half a go the Lord first spoke to me and said YOU ARE ON THE CUSP OF SOMETHING BIG. So here i am, anxiously awaiting the potential of this being “something big”.

My heart… 

March 29, 2016

Almost a year ago, I lost my job. I was designing for a mega church which was rapidly expanding and at the time, reached over 25,000 people each week. I loved the company, the people, the vision. I was surrounded by God fearing, Kingdom building, like minded individuals and i was sure this was exactly where i was supposed to be. Which is why I’m convinced that this was what God intended to happen to me.

Less than 24 hours later, I was offered a lateral job within the same company, but with a much less exciting title. Bookstore sales associate replaced Church Interior Designer and overnight i went from a career to a high school student’s coworker. As i prayed about this next step, i felt like God was providing an opportunity that i should take for the meantime. Over the next year my quiet times consisted of God continually reminding me of his provision over my life and that when I was ready, he would provide the opportunity for the next step in my life. When potential next steps appeared, i presented them before the Lord and prayed that he would provide an opportunity or “close the door”. As my credit cards started building and rent continued to be raised, i became more and more wary and scared.  Which is how i know this is what God intended to happen to me.

I read an article my previous boss wrote about the idea “Why not?”. As an entrepreneur she started her own company designing offices, with no interior design background. She hired an interior designer with no current jobs lined up. But the mentality stayed the same. Why not?

So as the Lord has reminded me again and again over the last year, i now want to share it with you. “I feel like I’m on the cusp of something big”

Stay tuned….